My time or someone else's???

It suddenly seems that we are meant for other people to pass their time.. You realize you have become a cvreature who is there to hear every word you say and contribute nothing much... Surprising to note that I am being paid to do this!!!
Listen to some ridiculosity and generally pass time till you are wanted for something that YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO DO.
Then comes the part where you have some responsibilities and are usefully contributing rather than conduct god forsaken programs and generally appear busy when you are not doing something and call it Knowledge Management!!! HAH
Lets see how more your life can degenerate into this meaningless void that we have been drafted to fill in and to top it there is even a designation for this post.
Everyone calls it a Honeymoon period when you can have things your way... Only thing missing is a babe to screw!!!! Just frustrating times and this in anticipation of even more frustrating times ahead where you are at the mercy of your project manager rather than your concience, training sessions for passing time and ofcourse meaningless banter...

Till I find a purpose in this job , I remain
Arun

Things Looking up .. For the better???

Finally , ray of light at the end of the tunnel. Something happening. It is like those crystal balls where u have no idea of something to happen but know that something is happening. Twinge of remorse at having to leave occupied positions but it has to happen sometime.. Also the satisfaction that things are moving and also that it will be for sometime to come and not for a few weeks is gratifying.
Looking forwards to things to come I remain and hopeful of a career in what I like.
Also a lot of introspection happening these days and also to add the amount of advise being given and that too to people I expected would be giving advise to me!!!
Nice to seem important at some times and it gives a surrealistic feeling of confidence which I may add is disarming.
Also the fact that from this point on it is only me and my skills that can take me where i have to and I have to find my skills yet and that sends me some mixed signals.
Arun

Ruminations after a good lunch!!!!

A kings lunch later... one would only want to rest like a king, But alas!! have to get back to what I usually do... Nothing!!!!.
Seems kinda funny to say that you cannot sleep or look drowsy but you must also do nothing or have nothing to do..  paradoxical situation.
Observations:
Observed a mini accident where both injured parties wanted to go their own ways but unfortunately the situation was compunded by a third man who thought he was helping.. Seemed more like the guy wanted to make a fast buck. Such things happen and such people are called middlemen..
We are also not too good either all our lives we strive to make money due to the capabilities we possess ... essentially tlking skills.. seems stupid to say that we have been recruited to talk to the client since no one in the company has these skills ? They cannot communicate...???  sign language perhaps. Maybe liek you give them a piece of code and they would seemc content to sit over it an ponder.
The clients too are to blame never actually specifying what they want and we become the convienient scapegoats...
Hehehe life degenerates into meaningless banter and word games to keep you awake...
Makes me remember Pink Floyd...
And wheh the cloud breaks , thunder in your ear...
You shout and no one seems to hear...

Seems  Roger waters knew my fate early on and I might rightly call myself a lunatic...
Arun

My daily chore!!!!

Putting in my time before the computer has become an unavoidable exercise. Life right now seems split between interminable mail checks , Reading blogs and of course the proverbial cup of tea....
Its funny sometimes when U watch others do the same thing as you and still not complain that there is nothing to do. Guess it has finally gone over their heads and it has become an accepted fact they have nothing to do and are waiting for something.
Reminds me of poeple waiting at the railway station waiting for trains with luggage. They have nothing to do and cannot leave their place for fear of losing their luggage. Just wait and watch others as to what they are upto and if possible read some books...
Another analogy would be people in Day trains who cannot sleep nor can they bide thier time fruitfully.. Just sit around do nothing.

All this makes me feel priviledged ... atleast I have mail to resort to!!! And of course the cup of tea....

Clouded Horizon

Days pass without mention of anything to do but stare at a screen trying to pass time from the interminable 9.30 to 5.30. Redefining the 9 to 5 job I would say!!!!. Looking forward to some things happening and at the same time hope some things will happen but do not seem to.
Life draws to an interminable event not differing day to day and there is nothing new that you can do everyday to spice up your life.
There is nothing that you can tell others that..." You know what I did today" there are no challenges and in the hope of challenges to cvome you remain!!!!
Is this what we have conscripted for? is this what life will be in times to come. It is not unjustified to expect somethings you know are going to happen to happen sooner and secretly wish that it would not for some time to come.....

So far life remains as a still life portrait